Okay, let me explain. So there's a boy.. I met him during summer on the most amazing week long course ever. At the time, he was literally just a friend. That's all he was. To be completely honest, I had my eye on another guy that was also on the course so I hadn't really noticed him a lot.
After the week had sadly come to an end and we all went home to finally add each other on social networks which we had been deprived of for the week (there was no signal). We started to talk on Facebook, and at first it was just friendly. And then it got a bit flirty.
Oh, I didn't mean like full on flirty sexting.. Please don't get me wrong! (I'm not that type of person - just so that we're all clear)
It was just flirty banter. And now I think he likes me. Actually, I don't think, it's obvious. Without trying to sound modest, all the signs are there. Continuous compliments, non-stop texting, lots of winks etc. You know the drill - you just know when you know.
But here's the dilemma. I'm not attracted to him.
Yet.
I don't know.
The problem is - Am I forcing myself to think I could have feelings for this guy when in reality I'm just being taken over by the thoughts of wanting a boyfriend?
It sounds dumb, but I've never had a boyfriend, and with all these chick-flicks around with the most perfect, romantic love stories, it's hard not to want one. My best friend's have been in and out of relationships and it makes me want to try one too. It's not a matter of Peer Pressure by the way, if you misunderstood. I want a boyfriend on my own accord; it doesn't affect me so much knowing my best friend's are/were in ones.
I'm just confused and don't really know what to do.
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